the onus has a chance to sign a two year contract with this manager. She would make 10% of whatever we pull in. The only problem is that if we do sign, by law we cannot sign with any other person to represent for two whole years...
what am i ever going to do.
speech and debate plus a serious contract with a manager most likely spells disaster.
I have much thinking to do.
Don't get me wrong, this is a huge step forward for the band! (We were also invited to play at the sets and the clubhouse in september. hope to see ya'll there!) Everything for me lately has had a pessismistic tone to it, and honestly i've hated every last minute of the past 2 months. This decision will be pretty life changing.. If i follow through on it, I wonder where it will take the onus. I wonder where it will take me.
I need something new. I don't think i can continue existing like i do now. Otherwise i'll explode with frustration, sadness, and disappointment. The thing is, if we do sign the contract, speech and debate may take the backseat.. I'm not sure if that's what I want. On one hand, speech and debate makes me so happy and gives me reason to go to school every day. On the other hand speech and debate is also why I have to deal with the frustration, sadness, and disappointment every day.
God dammit. Why couldn't life be easier?!?!
