well i haven't really posted anything in a long while. and i also don't really know what to post about.
I guess i can talk about how i'm feeling right now.
Well for one thing. School. sucks. big. time. Yeah yeah, it's my fault that i didn't apply myself as much as i could have. and people telling me that really doesn't help. It's not like i don't already know.
Band wise everythings good. We got alot of material on the way. We haven't posted anything on myspace for agesssss because we've hit a few bumps along the way. But i feel we're fully recovered now, and will have at least 2 or 3 new songs up within a week or two. and we'll certainly have more coming very soon. it's just hard recording so much material. it takes time. and money.
I'm in a blah mood right now. I want to post something really awesome and really thought provoking. But i just don't think i have it in me tonight. A few thoughts on my mind. some great. and some make me feel sick to my stomach.
I'm driving alot! at least 20-30 minutes a day. Doesn't sound like that much, but i'm starting to get the hang of it for sure. Easy as pie.
Reading a new book. It's called the broker, by john grisham. it's very good if i do say so myself. it kinda makes me want to be a lawyer or something. (which is ironic because it's about lawyers and brokers being killed.)
I need sleep. When i wake up, i'll be in a much better mood! Maybe next post will be better. sorry!
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Thursday, February 5, 2009
some thoughts
on tonight's performance.
1. vocals were a little quiet.
2. Guitar was too loud.
3. bass was WAY too quiet.
4. Drums were a little bit quite.
5. I cannot fucking believe that in the program it said "casey cantor's band". that's seriously awful. that makes me so angry. i feel terrible.
6. The crowd didn't dig us. They were there for the hip hop and stuff. They just didn't get us, and it was a weird feeling.
7. We as a band played pretty good.
So overall, everything that went wrong was completely our of our control. I'm a little down because so many things did go wrong. But hey! there's nothing i could have done about it. It was a fun night, and i'm pumped for the STAND benefit concert. (Which we're closing for!!!)
1. vocals were a little quiet.
2. Guitar was too loud.
3. bass was WAY too quiet.
4. Drums were a little bit quite.
5. I cannot fucking believe that in the program it said "casey cantor's band". that's seriously awful. that makes me so angry. i feel terrible.
6. The crowd didn't dig us. They were there for the hip hop and stuff. They just didn't get us, and it was a weird feeling.
7. We as a band played pretty good.
So overall, everything that went wrong was completely our of our control. I'm a little down because so many things did go wrong. But hey! there's nothing i could have done about it. It was a fun night, and i'm pumped for the STAND benefit concert. (Which we're closing for!!!)
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
i'm such
a teenager.
Mood swings like crazy lately.
a little down.
very tired.
there's a cup of 8 hour old coffee in front of me.
That means my dad was here earlier.
I embarrass myself sometimes. right now for instance. i need to grow up!
Mood swings like crazy lately.
a little down.
very tired.
there's a cup of 8 hour old coffee in front of me.
That means my dad was here earlier.
I embarrass myself sometimes. right now for instance. i need to grow up!
Monday, February 2, 2009
i totally just spent
like 30 minutes reading all of the comments left on my myspace ever. And i mean ever. It was... Insane. like. Insane.
Life sometimes is just too much to handle. All the places i've been, all the people i've known, and all the things i've learned make me who i am today.
It's crazy to think all the places you've been in life. When i say places i don't mean actual literal physcial places. I mean who you're friends with, how old you are, how you view life, what your problems are, etc.
6th grade. Times were so simple then. Just coming into middle school. I couldn't tell you much about this time in my life. It was so long ago. I came into Aki-mel with Brandon Mahoney as my best friend in the whole wide world. But i sit down in my first period class, and Alex Brink is just staring me in the eye. Bam. New best friend. Also, before this, i didn't really have any paticuliar interests in life. But Alex got me into Led Zeppelin in 6th grade, and ultimately, music itself. Yep. Alex Brink basically is responsible for who i am today. He truly is one of the best friends a kid could ask for. I mean god damn. I never really think about it. He has done so much for me. I love him to death.
7th grade. This was a very interesting year for me. I started to become pretty damn social, and this was also when i started to get a feel for who my closest friends were. This was probably the time when everybody started getting into their own little groups of friends. I know i did. It was me, alex, zaki, alec, and zach. (i really hope i'm not forgetting anyone.) We played alot of video games. Hung out all the time, and chilled with some other pretty cool people. I have fond memories of this point in my life. I'd have to say it was some of the happiest times of my life. Not a worry in the world. (it was 7th grade. what was there to worry about!). So, not only were there alot of really close guy friends, i had alot of girls effect my life then too.
I started off the year with a HUGE crush on Kylie Harmon haha. She was my first girlfriend in sixth grade, and i was totally into her still. oh my god i was so awkward around her! anyways, bad things happened between me and her. Such a long story. But we ended up making up, and being pretty close friends later that year. (i still was pretty into her throughout most of 7th grade haha) I also got really close to a girl named Roseana Kirgis. We were literally best friends for quite awhile. She really was a big part of my life around then. And around octoberish, I asked out a girl named Ashley Swazey. We went out for a total of... what... a week or two? that doesn't matter. What was crazy about that was that I ended up sitting at her lunch table one day, and she introduced me to a girl name Courtney Hillbrands. And that was the start of a very long, emotional rollercoaster of a relationship.
So Courtney, Alex, Roseana, and I became closer than you can imagine. It was pretty intense sometimes.
Also, I was pretty into this girl named Hannah Ross the second half of that year. I ended up asking her out near the end of it. I don't really want to get into details about that haha. We went out for about two months. Well, i ended being a terrible person, and broke up with her that summer, and the next day asked out courtney. (talk about insensitive.)
8th grade. I could write an entire book on this year. It was the second most life changing year of my life. This was the year that i started to bloom into who i am today. Because there's no possible way i could tell you everything that happened this year, i'll just write a little bit (i'll probably write another post dedicated to this year). I dated Courtney the whole year. I'm not really going to talk about that. I'm sure all of you know enough about it. It was full of laughs, tears, and so many other things.
But i met another person who changed my life forever that year. Her name was Ms. Piendel. She changed me from just some other middle schooler to a kid who had beliefs, who cared about what was going on in the world, and who believed he could make a difference. She opened my eyes to so much. I really credit her my very view on life. My compassion was sparked by her. I don't speak to her anymore. It kills me inside. She really has been the most influential person in my life to an extent. I'll honestly probably write another post about her too!
9th grade. oh my god. 9th grade. It's funny. This by far was the most influential year of my life to date. I grew. I grew so, so much. Honestly, ninth grade was like fucking BC and AD for me. Before 9th grade was an enitrely different life for me. When i hit high school, i became a completely different person, but at the same time, i retained who i truly was. So ultimately, i am and always was the same Casey i've always been, I was just a different expression of that person.
There were two sides to me that year. There was speech and debate casey, and there was inner struggle casey haha.
I fought that fight in so many different ways. At the time, it seemed like there was no hope. That school year was insane. Too insane. It changed me. But you know what? I know that change was for the better. I wouldn't change a god damn fucking thing about it.
That summer was another great summer. I spent it with my best friends in the whole world at the time. Alex, Ryan, and Gabe. I love all of those guys.
10th grade. It's not over yet. I'm definitely going to talk about this year in depth in another post. But i will say a few words about it. I feel like i'm a very sensible person now. 9th grade was such an amazing year of growth for me, and I put that growth to use this year. I'm in the best place i've been in for such a long time. I'm doing everything the way i want to. Which is exactly what you have got to do.
Be yourself. Be forgiving. Be kind. Be selfless. Be ambitious. Be lazy. Be stupid. Be smart. Be what you've always wanted to be!
So if you read this whole post, wow. I'm impressed haha. That was a very very thin outline of my middle school days to my present. And i mean thin! I'm inspired to talk more about my past in future posts : ]
I started this post feeling a bit sad because time passes by so quick, and no matter how hard you try, you'll never, ever get it back. Sure you lose friends, and people you know may grow apart, but hey. that's life! i'm sorry, that's just how it is. Why get sad? that process is inevitable. Instead, you should be optimistic. It really is the only sensible way to live life. Make new friends. Cherish the ones you have now. Love your parents. Hug your pets. Because pretty soon, you'll be posting blogs about this time in your life! Why not make this a time you love to think about, because it makes you smile.
Life sometimes is just too much to handle. All the places i've been, all the people i've known, and all the things i've learned make me who i am today.
It's crazy to think all the places you've been in life. When i say places i don't mean actual literal physcial places. I mean who you're friends with, how old you are, how you view life, what your problems are, etc.
6th grade. Times were so simple then. Just coming into middle school. I couldn't tell you much about this time in my life. It was so long ago. I came into Aki-mel with Brandon Mahoney as my best friend in the whole wide world. But i sit down in my first period class, and Alex Brink is just staring me in the eye. Bam. New best friend. Also, before this, i didn't really have any paticuliar interests in life. But Alex got me into Led Zeppelin in 6th grade, and ultimately, music itself. Yep. Alex Brink basically is responsible for who i am today. He truly is one of the best friends a kid could ask for. I mean god damn. I never really think about it. He has done so much for me. I love him to death.
7th grade. This was a very interesting year for me. I started to become pretty damn social, and this was also when i started to get a feel for who my closest friends were. This was probably the time when everybody started getting into their own little groups of friends. I know i did. It was me, alex, zaki, alec, and zach. (i really hope i'm not forgetting anyone.) We played alot of video games. Hung out all the time, and chilled with some other pretty cool people. I have fond memories of this point in my life. I'd have to say it was some of the happiest times of my life. Not a worry in the world. (it was 7th grade. what was there to worry about!). So, not only were there alot of really close guy friends, i had alot of girls effect my life then too.
I started off the year with a HUGE crush on Kylie Harmon haha. She was my first girlfriend in sixth grade, and i was totally into her still. oh my god i was so awkward around her! anyways, bad things happened between me and her. Such a long story. But we ended up making up, and being pretty close friends later that year. (i still was pretty into her throughout most of 7th grade haha) I also got really close to a girl named Roseana Kirgis. We were literally best friends for quite awhile. She really was a big part of my life around then. And around octoberish, I asked out a girl named Ashley Swazey. We went out for a total of... what... a week or two? that doesn't matter. What was crazy about that was that I ended up sitting at her lunch table one day, and she introduced me to a girl name Courtney Hillbrands. And that was the start of a very long, emotional rollercoaster of a relationship.
So Courtney, Alex, Roseana, and I became closer than you can imagine. It was pretty intense sometimes.
Also, I was pretty into this girl named Hannah Ross the second half of that year. I ended up asking her out near the end of it. I don't really want to get into details about that haha. We went out for about two months. Well, i ended being a terrible person, and broke up with her that summer, and the next day asked out courtney. (talk about insensitive.)
8th grade. I could write an entire book on this year. It was the second most life changing year of my life. This was the year that i started to bloom into who i am today. Because there's no possible way i could tell you everything that happened this year, i'll just write a little bit (i'll probably write another post dedicated to this year). I dated Courtney the whole year. I'm not really going to talk about that. I'm sure all of you know enough about it. It was full of laughs, tears, and so many other things.
But i met another person who changed my life forever that year. Her name was Ms. Piendel. She changed me from just some other middle schooler to a kid who had beliefs, who cared about what was going on in the world, and who believed he could make a difference. She opened my eyes to so much. I really credit her my very view on life. My compassion was sparked by her. I don't speak to her anymore. It kills me inside. She really has been the most influential person in my life to an extent. I'll honestly probably write another post about her too!
9th grade. oh my god. 9th grade. It's funny. This by far was the most influential year of my life to date. I grew. I grew so, so much. Honestly, ninth grade was like fucking BC and AD for me. Before 9th grade was an enitrely different life for me. When i hit high school, i became a completely different person, but at the same time, i retained who i truly was. So ultimately, i am and always was the same Casey i've always been, I was just a different expression of that person.
There were two sides to me that year. There was speech and debate casey, and there was inner struggle casey haha.
I fought that fight in so many different ways. At the time, it seemed like there was no hope. That school year was insane. Too insane. It changed me. But you know what? I know that change was for the better. I wouldn't change a god damn fucking thing about it.
That summer was another great summer. I spent it with my best friends in the whole world at the time. Alex, Ryan, and Gabe. I love all of those guys.
10th grade. It's not over yet. I'm definitely going to talk about this year in depth in another post. But i will say a few words about it. I feel like i'm a very sensible person now. 9th grade was such an amazing year of growth for me, and I put that growth to use this year. I'm in the best place i've been in for such a long time. I'm doing everything the way i want to. Which is exactly what you have got to do.
Be yourself. Be forgiving. Be kind. Be selfless. Be ambitious. Be lazy. Be stupid. Be smart. Be what you've always wanted to be!
So if you read this whole post, wow. I'm impressed haha. That was a very very thin outline of my middle school days to my present. And i mean thin! I'm inspired to talk more about my past in future posts : ]
I started this post feeling a bit sad because time passes by so quick, and no matter how hard you try, you'll never, ever get it back. Sure you lose friends, and people you know may grow apart, but hey. that's life! i'm sorry, that's just how it is. Why get sad? that process is inevitable. Instead, you should be optimistic. It really is the only sensible way to live life. Make new friends. Cherish the ones you have now. Love your parents. Hug your pets. Because pretty soon, you'll be posting blogs about this time in your life! Why not make this a time you love to think about, because it makes you smile.
Sunday, February 1, 2009
I feel
great. This weekend was wonderful, and i'm in such a good mood.
So, my last post talked about how i disliked the set that my band will be playing at the talent show this thursday (which by the way, if you are reading this, you BETTER go. Or else. : ] ). Well, i'm actually starting to come around to it. On our myspace, I posted the song "Driving Force" with me singing instead of alex. And now that i've heard myself singing it, I feel alot more comfortable with myself performing it, and also thinking it's actually good!
As for the song "Purple Stain", if you asked me how i felt about it three days ago (Hell! 12 hours ago!) i would have told you i was totally against playing it at the show. Well, now i'm totally for it. It's pretty high energy, and it's definitely a fun song. The end jam should be EPIC.
I realize that the show is going to go well no matter what. We've done our homework, and are prepared to do an awesome show. Also, how could it go bad with me dancing on stage? I mean come on. Lets get real here. Me dancing=awesomeness. : ]
Also. So much to do. So little time.
So, my last post talked about how i disliked the set that my band will be playing at the talent show this thursday (which by the way, if you are reading this, you BETTER go. Or else. : ] ). Well, i'm actually starting to come around to it. On our myspace, I posted the song "Driving Force" with me singing instead of alex. And now that i've heard myself singing it, I feel alot more comfortable with myself performing it, and also thinking it's actually good!
As for the song "Purple Stain", if you asked me how i felt about it three days ago (Hell! 12 hours ago!) i would have told you i was totally against playing it at the show. Well, now i'm totally for it. It's pretty high energy, and it's definitely a fun song. The end jam should be EPIC.
I realize that the show is going to go well no matter what. We've done our homework, and are prepared to do an awesome show. Also, how could it go bad with me dancing on stage? I mean come on. Lets get real here. Me dancing=awesomeness. : ]
Also. So much to do. So little time.
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