so...

I'm sorry haha. my last post was a little bit dramatic. I'm in a much better mood now. (talk about mood swings.. : /)

You two are right. I really didn't mean what i said to you guys. I clearly didn't think about what a blog was when i said that haha (yep. i'm an idiot : ])

Things can just get frustrating. Today wasn't a good day for me. That's all!

I mean when you invest so much time into something, and then it doesn't work, it's very upsetting. I put alot of myself into this band of mine. We had a really good thing going, and then somebody decides to leave.

Let me get something straight. I am in no way shape or form mad at alex. I mean how could i be? He says being a performer is just not his thing. Could i really be mad at someone for not wanting to do something? i mean, that'd just be cruel!

Anyways, it's just frustrasting when you're set back to square one. But now I realize that square one isn't a bad thing. It's a chance to start over. do things right. Alex wasn't a productive songwriter. He would contribute in practice, and that's all. With me taking his place for now, I know i will concentrate so so much more on creating songs, and making this band happen. I think things are really about to take off!

SO with that on my plate, on top of a failing english grade, i got a bit hasty earlier. I hope you can forgive me : ]

Courtney: happy birthday again. Last time i said it, it was kinda awkward? haha i don't know. I'm really saying it now. I hope you enjoy being 16. You can now legally stay out till midnight. Party it up girl!!!

Sammi: Feel better baby : ]